Deviant Dreams

2011-12-09T17:45:00.001-08:00

You think it might be a cancer and your life changes, you try to enjoy it before knowing the real results...

You think it might be a cancer and you try to love better before it all starts...

you think it might be a cancer, and you think about the worse things and you will accept all the conditions within yourself...

2011-01-31T23:05:00.001-08:00

تلخی زندگی از یک جا که بزند بالا دیگر مزه اش را نمی فهمی قورت می دهی تا تمام شود

2011-01-31T21:27:00.001-08:00

Je suis seul comme le reste du monde.

2011-01-15T23:37:00.000-08:00

An Elegy for you.

I found you when I was 6 in the narrow alleys of Mashhad, We played, giggled, laughed and talked about all the creepy things we could. lots of fireworks, lost of biking, soccer, snow fights...

8 years ago, we lost you in a highway, under a giant truck on some snowy days...

5 years ago, I left them by taking off from that land...

I miss you but I hope you are all in joy and happiness and peace.

love you my old friend, Ghobad.

2011-01-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

You are the result of an enormous mistake...

Between, happy birthday!

Between, happy new year!

2010-10-04T20:55:00.000-07:00

It is hard to say NO to a person you have always wished to be with.

2010-10-03T13:02:00.001-07:00

I feel like a piece of shit

2010-09-01T22:41:00.000-07:00

It comes easily and goes away easily...

2010-08-22T20:46:00.000-07:00

sometimes I need to dig a very deep well and make sure there is no water or seeds there, and whisper my feelings into the well and fill it with concrete and never let it grow back again....

2010-08-20T00:08:00.000-07:00

The deepest grief happens when you see the stupidity of humanity -

2010-08-05T16:44:00.000-07:00

Time does not change people core, the foundation of their characters. Time does not change everything but only maybe in movies.

2010-08-02T21:26:00.001-07:00

I took me a year to become brave enough to throw my stone very high!!!!!!

2010-04-29T00:35:00.001-07:00

Sad is the word
Love is the life

2010-04-21T21:25:00.000-07:00

thinking of moving

2010-04-15T01:41:00.000-07:00

This one is flying away too.

2010-04-14T02:02:00.000-07:00

Do you act to live

or do you live to act?

That is the biggest difference between developing countries and the developed countires.

2010-03-25T01:03:00.000-07:00

Like a bird
I need let ya go
I never doubt you boy

I need ya go

I want to keep the blue sky
Smiles
laughters

I want to keep things nice and clean

I need ya fly , I need to let it go

Further and further
There is nothing waiting for us,
Expect the despair and solitude...

I need ya go
breath the air
live the air

walk away...

2009-12-20T23:15:00.001-08:00

Feeling blue after wine.....

2009-11-06T22:36:00.000-08:00

It seems as our days pass by, we see more things which are meaningful, careless, emotionless- the framework for deep human relationships changes its order on daily basis and eventually , most of the time the results is depressing.

It is becomming deeply disturbing, an ugly shape and sometimes you can see white drops of friendship lingers on. Sometimes red drops...Sometimes red roses...

Not sure whatelse will fade away since the day we linger on here...

2009-10-18T00:43:00.001-07:00

Wish you could read this..Wish you could see it...Wish you could feel it

dream it
live it

Touch it
Give birth to it

Walk over it
Cherish it

it

it

it

2009-10-06T01:06:00.001-07:00

A few people are diamonds but mostly they are stones...you have a long way to live alone.

2009-09-24T01:26:00.000-07:00

no bubbles, no crying

that is what you think - but as life stays bubble-less, some other troubles starts...

2009-07-14T00:42:00.000-07:00

We are not going anywhere...we will be in this living room...we will be drowning in black hole while cheering our victory over their pain and blood...

2009-07-01T23:38:00.000-07:00

Does not see a bright future for him - but she hopes the best for the him and the people!

2009-06-27T01:26:00.000-07:00

Any blue sky left?

Is the passion going to beat alive?

Will there be any eyes stretching out for the truth?
The so-called ecstasy land blooms in blood
The tattoos of history dig the death valleys so hard.

Will we be the new soil for the new soul?
Or
We will be lost in the blood game.

The pain is bigger than our being
The lost hopes in the insanity of the storm
The mass whispers of this land

Will there be any bed to heal this land?
Will there be any wine rivers left to the ecstasy of their lives?
Or
They will be lost under the train of ignorance?

2009-05-26T00:09:00.000-07:00

A dive into my death
A jump into the none-sense reality

The blindness of whispers
The melting dreams

The crystal of your eyes
Burning
In the life-long run

Shall I keep the hole of light?
Shall I repeat the songs to survive?
Shall I read the verses never achieved? Never dreamed?
And there will be survival?

For
The crystal eyes
The passionate smiles

For each birth, after death

The beauty deceives
The comfort kills

The growth would be missed.

2009-05-24T00:14:00.001-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0MFCVjciTBE

2009-04-27T01:09:00.001-07:00

boys are scared of cuddling more than sex!

2009-04-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

I have missed to stay in bed till noon in lazy Saturdays...just like those good old days which are gone....

2009-02-26T22:55:00.000-08:00

Let life kiss your ass

do not run for life , but let life run for you

Go where your dreams and desires take you, you are promised that life will follow your steps...

2009-02-25T01:00:00.000-08:00

emotionally retarded.

2009-02-03T02:34:00.001-08:00

Will the dreams survive?

before I melt in the wheels of time...

2009-01-15T01:16:00.000-08:00

Not even time
Can stop my tears
After all this...
6 years...

Still I can remember the snow ...the cold night
The mourning day
and
The peaceful day
That you were gone
just in a second
Live long my old Friend

2009-01-11T11:34:00.000-08:00

Another Year Is Gone!

I lost a very loved one; my uncle.

I started to know many new people.

I still have my family- which is the best.

I am surviving- which is hopeful.

I need to lose weight - which is fightfull.

I need to make my wings stronger - that is what all is about.

PS. I didnt forget my crazy friends. :D

In Snow 2

2008-12-30T16:20:00.000-08:00

Vancouver After Snowstorms

2008-12-30T16:11:00.000-08:00

2008-12-30T15:48:00.000-08:00

I have stopped using L for some days now, things are difficult now but I dont want the medication anyway.

2008-12-29T03:11:00.000-08:00

A luxury 1,400 sq m penthouse sold recently for US$21 million (S$29 million) at US$15,000 per sq m in swanky northern Teheran - yet the average monthly salary of Iranians stands at US$300 to US$460.

ref : http://marquetteturner.wordpress.com/2008/01/30/worlds-top-3-most-expensive-cities-for-real-estate/

a non-iranian realtor...

2008-12-03T22:22:00.000-08:00

http://angrymouse.deviantart.com/art/Not-enough-time-55898454

2008-12-03T22:11:00.000-08:00

I am not dead nor alive
I am not an animal nor a human
I am not silent nor words
I am not moving or paralyzed

I am just drown

consistently

numb
unreal
transparent

nothing

a big wonder

where all these streams are going to?

where my staisfaction is pierced to the body of time?

2008-11-23T01:36:00.000-08:00

How to tell someone that you like him? how to ask someone out as a girl? jeeeezzzz...I need some serious help this time.

2008-11-23T01:35:00.001-08:00

I have the same old pain in my arms and neck tonight...isnt it amazing?

2008-11-07T02:34:00.000-08:00

I am drunk, you are insane, who wants to take us to that destination?

I want a strawberry dipped in wine- you want the joy of the whole world in one drop of seconds...

2008-09-28T23:08:00.000-07:00

The best things in life are not about what you consume,what you see,where you go and how to spend it.

It is about what you get out of it...those small, little things of achievements...those moments...those smiles...eyes...passions

It is about the essence of feeling alive

breath-passion-go

2008-09-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

My fucked up ankle!

comments:

Marjan = az paye pichide ye joor ta'ajob kardam, az naakhoone laak zade ye joor dige!!!

Nazli = Still: very sexy!

2008-09-17T18:57:00.001-07:00

how to deal with him for a month? I am already nervous :(

2008-09-08T18:43:00.000-07:00

There is a

new born

logic

hidden

insanity...

2008-09-07T01:06:00.000-07:00

Show me a person is secure in love !

2008-09-05T22:57:00.000-07:00

How things can be mentally better, happy and sweeter and friendlier?
That is the question...

between, did i mention that I need to see a ghost? I am longing to see one!

2008-09-02T23:10:00.000-07:00

I am an ENFP

Extraverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving

ENFPs are initiators of change, keenly perceptive of possibilities. They energize and stimulate others through their contagious enthusiasm. They prefer the start-up phase of a project or relationship, and are tireless in the pursuit of new-found interests. ENFPs are able to anticipate the needs of others and to offer them needed help and appreciation. They bring zest, joy, liveliness, and a zany sense of fun to all aspects of their lives. They are at their best in situations that are fluid and changing, and that allow them to express their creativity and use their charisma. They tend to idealize people, and can be disappointed when reality fails to fulfill their expectations. They are easily frustrated if a project requires a great deal of follow-up or attention to detail.

2008-08-26T01:21:00.000-07:00

you might be living
without being

you might be smiling
without feeling

you might be giving
without caring

you might be happy
without wearing

you might be oceanic
without the sky

you might be a dreamer
without dreams of survival

you might be a dancer
without the wings to fly high

you might be a child
without a chocolate

or a youth
without any future ahead

you might be a mother
lost under pressure

you might be a nation
without a nation

to breath

2008-08-12T01:13:00.000-07:00

The algorithms of my brain need to expand beyonad the expectations of the algorithms ... this limist should be broken...and penerated...that is how my life will exist...

2008-08-11T21:51:00.000-07:00

http://photoport.deviantart.com/art/Luminosity4-84225862

2008-08-11T21:48:00.000-07:00

The words , The works

2008-08-06T21:05:00.000-07:00

2008-07-16T01:02:00.000-07:00

Chocolate lover friends!!!

2008-07-16T00:58:00.000-07:00

Anything more terrifying than blindness is being the only person who can see.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/antomic/236587469/in/photostream/

2008-07-01T23:05:00.000-07:00

Funeral

2008-06-30T02:21:00.000-07:00

we lost you

2008-06-13T19:31:00.001-07:00

The patience flied away
My eyes ran away
Laughter’s lost their way

Here is a windy day

Butterfly
Flying away

It goes
As
It comes

It runs tears
As
Smiles

It injure the being
As
Healing

Life without it
Is so mean

Restless minds
Manic lives

Bipolar
Bipolar

South
North

West
East

My star
My star

No words
No tears

My tired sheets
The lonely bed

The blue window
My restless legs

I can hear
The bones
Broken

This cage
This cage

This mess
This mess

2008-06-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

Everyone leave everyone
The sense of life
The wildly ride
The edge of the death valley

No matter
A Rock or a heart
You will be climbed up

No matter
Your passion
Your tears
Everyone leave everyone

Here,
On earth,

There
In the sky

Through our mentality
Everyone leave everyone

The bitter wave of life
The black answers of time

The seashore of satisfaction
Everyone leaves everyone

2008-05-18T01:20:00.000-07:00

http://atra-virago.deviantart.com/art/Ex-luce-mutatio-71037716

2008-05-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

people become the victims of earthquakes in cities and the victim of storms in villages...

China and Burma...

each with a huge loss

Burma

78000 death, 56000 lost, 2 and half million injured

China

50000 death estimated at least

2008-05-03T01:34:00.001-07:00

sleeping on line...less loneliness...ouchhhh

2008-04-20T00:59:00.000-07:00

At the end of a perfect day

I feel

lonely

tired

wanderer

and the life becomes

bolder

and my veins become

harder

and my heart becomes

slower

and my eyes becomes

red

rainy

2008-04-20T00:57:00.001-07:00

192: do you feel lonely?
at: yes
192: that feeling sucks sometimes
at: i try not to think about it

2008-04-20T00:55:00.001-07:00

My pillow is the sad one always, the numb loyal friend. She is the one who only listen and caress my tears...the sad place and it gives me comfort...my pillow

2008-04-18T00:56:00.001-07:00

I have missed Him

2008-04-04T09:27:00.000-07:00

خاطراتت را نمی خواهم

نه چشمت

نه حجمت

نه نیشترحالم

افق را می خواهم

دیوانگی محض این زندگی

و چکیدن رویا از شاخه های دلهایمان

مرهمی نیست

پایانی نیست

این خود زندگیست

آرزویم انسان شدن هست

افق دیرینه رویا

2008-03-25T18:42:00.000-07:00

Architecture is not about what you have or who you are, It is about what you can give to the world

Architect is a wanderer, a finder, a giver

2008-03-22T02:00:00.001-07:00

I will save myself
From
The drunk
The sick
The vampires

I will save myself
Deep beneath the ocean of time
Where the waves
Tears the rocks apart

I will save myself
In each smile
In each passion
In each stretch of trust

The bigness is not a dream
Life without pain would be so mean

I will save myself
To the long narrow paths
To this unknown world
To the memory veins

My mind will conquer
Where my eyes don’t see

My thoughts will grow
Where my heart doesn’t beat

I will save myself
To the scratches of the death valleys
To be a warrior
Of the sin fields

2008-03-22T01:40:00.000-07:00

I will not play at tug o'war.
I'd rather play at hug o'war,
Where everyone hugs
Instead of tugs,
Where everyone giggles
And rolls on the rug,
Where everyone kisses,
And everyone grins,
And everyone cuddles,
And everyone wins.

2008-03-18T10:54:00.000-07:00

2008-03-18T01:14:00.001-07:00

God gave us a penis and a brain, but not enough blood to use both at the same time.

Robin Williams

2008-03-18T01:12:00.001-07:00

Among men, sex sometimes results in intimacy; among women, intimacy sometimes results in sex.

Barbara Cartland

2008-03-15T00:01:00.000-07:00

One Breaks a heart in pieces
One is nervous about her exam.
One is shocked with his addmision.
One is worried about the school and lover.
One is worried about her mother.
One is trying to explore new ways.
One is plugged into his radio.

One has forgot the one.
One is watching the ones.

One
for
Ones

Ones
for
One

2008-03-13T00:38:00.000-07:00

My footsteps are light,
- A sign of clear conscience –
My footsteps are light,
My song - thunderous -

God placed me all alone
In the cosmic universe.
- You’re not a woman, but a bird,
Therefore - soar and sing.

M.T

2008-03-10T01:19:00.000-07:00

2008-03-10T01:18:00.000-07:00

2008-03-10T01:17:00.000-07:00

2008-03-10T01:12:00.000-07:00

Dear Beeta, Thanks for your words. They were totally so real. Your words brought me alot of motivation and they changed my view angle to my life and whatever that happens around me.
I dont feel good but at least I feel a little bit satisfied with the hints you mentioned.

If the hell makes a heaven for the rest, If there is a release from " the pain of other"...

Luv you the most

2008-03-08T02:17:00.001-08:00

Wet
Under the dark skin of the night

Drops
Touching
My lips
My arms

My tired steps
Toward nowhere

Time laughs
Through
The waves of insanity

The fire
In
Me

The fire
In
Me

The ash of my skin

The vapor of my tears
The dreams

Wet
Under the shinny drops of rain

Drops
Making love
To my mind

Drops
Wash me away

The silence of the night

The image of you
In bed
In peace

The black umbrella
The red blood

In a rainy life
As tonight

I am so good
Thanks to the pills

I am so silent
Thanks to the streams

I am so bitter
Like the poison you never touch

My face is salty
Like the sea

The whale of this ocean
Needs to fly
Downward the sea

My confusion
Needs to be released

And the pain of missing you
Get released
In a misty heart of mine
In a rainy night of our life
In the world of colorful pills

Drops of tears
Drops of rain
Drops of water

To the streams

The birth of the whale
Across the waves

2008-03-05T23:15:00.000-08:00

اینجا از اول کسی این گل بازی را دوست نداشته است

دست مایه بوده است

و گلی تب دار

گل که ترک خورد

آب گلدان برفت

گل ماند با عطش گل

آنقدر ماند

تا گل خشگید

و گل ترکید

و زمان

آنها را

برد

2008-02-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

2008-02-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

2008-02-23T23:07:00.000-08:00

I have started to get sick again and it sucks...my stupid body has a new style for a year now...after each mental tension, my immune system gets screwed up and I get a strange flue which just goes in my throat and I am guessing I need some anti biotics very sooon... after 4 nights of sleepless I could sleep last night...I am trying to eat food again like a normal person...I took a shower after 3 days ( just imagine 3 days no shower! so many warms!) and well...I will survive...I will stop caring for him so he feels I am independent and I keep all the blah blah stuff for resting in peace!

God bless women brain!

2008-02-21T14:09:00.000-08:00

2008-02-21T14:08:00.001-08:00

It makes wine
It makes life

The burn of my mind

It is the live sound of guitar
It is her silent finger tips
Cleaning my pain away
Caressing my mind

My deep sorrow to this worldly life

For I am the victim
Of a memory

For I am the prison
Of a pre judgment

I am the soul
Beneath the ocean ceiling

I am the fire
Under your skin

I am your laughter
Your bitter broken mind

Your deep blow of freedom

I am the one
That gives
That leaves her dead bones
On the nest of our friendship

I am the colorful feathers of loss
I am the yellow color of your walls

I am in each
Shadow
Of distance

Each pain of loss
Each stone diving down the sea

I am the cat lover
A butterfly dreamer

I deal passion
I am the mine of hallow

The moment you find empty as tomorrow

I am an earth worm
Digging earth to the sky
For my tree needs to fly
To fly highly

Higher of my vision
Higher of this worldly life

I am the non stop dreamer
By the sea

2008-02-20T09:58:00.001-08:00

2008-02-20T09:45:00.000-08:00

کاش من یک گربه بودم که

وقتی همراهم بعد از 16 سال می میرد اصلا نفهمم

پرپرشدن مادر بزرگ را درک نکنم

و اصلا هم نفهمم جور دیگر هم می شود بود

اگه من یک گربه بودم

منو عقیم کرده بودن و چون دلدادگی گربه ندیده بودم

دوستی و عاشقی ندیده بودم

و با چشمان وق زده به اشک های یک نفر نگاه می کردم و کنار شومینه خودم رو کش می دادم

اگر گربه بودم بدبختی های زندگی انسانها رو درک نمی کردم و تنها چیزی که برام مهم بود بقا خودم بود

اگر من گربه بودم

خواهانم بودن و منو با ناز و نوازش گربه تر می کردند

و دمم رو برای انسانها تکون می دادم

2008-02-12T23:50:00.000-08:00

Hope is like this ; it screws you

2008-02-12T23:46:00.000-08:00

Happpyyyyy Valentine !

2008-02-12T23:43:00.000-08:00

... : dast bardar
love terekundan mamnoo :P

Ayat: :/

inam az valentine ma

2008-02-08T00:59:00.000-08:00

Once

2008-01-25T00:28:00.000-08:00

2008-01-25T00:27:00.000-08:00

Death makes us simplified and modified.

2007-12-22T01:40:00.000-08:00

2007-12-22T01:26:00.000-08:00

May always be
The sacred whispers

May always be
The eyes
The hands

Bursting tears
Out of me

May your spirit
Fly highly
As always

May I feel you
In all the veins
Of existence

The high stormy sky
The grey lips of death

The struggle
To win

To give
To give

To leave

To believe

To...

2007-12-17T22:23:00.001-08:00

2007-12-17T22:21:00.000-08:00